Monday, March 27, 2006
This is not a great day. I'm feeling depressed and lonely, anxious and lost. As I look at other artists' blogs and sites, instead of being inspired as usual, I feel intimidated and hopeless that I'll ever get where I want to go. I read this quote on Rhonna's blog and realized that this is a very real fear of mine. I want to master the technique of living to meet my goals/dreams.
I don't share easily, especially things that truly make me feel vulnerable, and I think maybe I'd like to change that. I'd like to trust that sharing would be met with understanding as I've seen again and again on other bloggers' pages, but for the most part I fear that it would be met with judgment and criticism. Sometimes I even find it hard to share them with myself. Maybe it would help if I really could share my hopes and fears, my dreams and disappointments.
In a brief bright moment, I looked at the pile of balled up kleenex I'd accumulated while collecting my tears and thought that might be a good symbol for the monster of depression. Thus this week's entry for Illustration Friday.