Friday, August 17, 2007
I'm feeling a little blue and lonely today. Even painting didn't really do anything for me. Just one of those days I guess.
It's funny, though. As much as I'd rather be happy and not feel bad, once I get past the worst of it (usually marked by a good cry), I feel quiet and still. And I can sense deeper waters. Not because depressed is deep - it's not really, it's just depressed - but because in the stillness that follows it I feel able to slow down and explore where I usually would just skim over (even when I'm trying to slow down and pay attention).
Now that I think about it, these days of unexplainable mood drops often seem to follow a period of too much skimming and not enough going deep. Must remember that.